March is upon us and some of the things I had hoped to be celebrating just didn’t happen. Thought our new workplace coaching tool website would be complete and starting to churn out some sales of our wonderful workplace product. The site remains unfinished as of this date. A planned vacation with our granddaughters has gone from a rather substantial adventure in northern Arizona to a small visit locally in Tucson, which, while fun, won’t be quite as exciting as we originally thought. Someone very close to me has discovered she “picked a lemon in the garden of love” and is still bruised from that reality check. Bill remains tied down with a boot that doesn’t let him drive for at least a few more weeks, while the medical tests I have undergone for nausea have yet to come back with a definitive diagnosis. Ever striving to be fabulous, I realized I had reached a place where I had to admit – not only am I not feeling fabulous, I am feeling blah – really blah.
The other day I did something I haven’t done EVER – or at least not in my memory. I did nothing all day but read and doze. I understand lots of people have lots of days like this, but for me, a day without some purpose never seems appropriate. And yet, it was freeing. I had to admit that actually there was not anything important that needed to be done yesterday – and no one was going to be upset, disappointed or bewildered by my solitary decision. I finished the day by watching the Oscars – and found it relaxing and reinforcing since all the winners were from great movies I had seen. Even the flub at the end worked for me – loved BOTH La La Land and Moonlight, the ultimate best picture selection.
Today I hit the ground running – writing and sending something I committed to do for a new friend, talked briefly with my sister who is getting a new computer, ordered a little pick-me-up for my niece who is job hunting and working to complete her doctoral dissertation. In addition, getting back involved in planning my high school 50th reunion, following up with some undone business with a favorite client, and even having a sort of halfway productive coaching session with my coaching partner. She’s another workplace “doctor” who has had a long career. We speak once a month and share ideas and get feedback from each other on our ever changing lives. Rebecca always makes me laugh – at myself as well as other absurd things – she helped perk me up.
Am about to go workout for a bit – always something that elevates my mood. And my daughter Courtney called to share just “being” with me that was fun. She was out of the office and alone, so we really managed to talk versus “trying” to talk when she is home with her husband and children. I realized too that I am literally at the end of my latest book: Thomas Friedman’s Thank you for Being Late which I HIGHLY recommend. That means I can order a new book today – and I remember seeing that Joyce Carol Oates has a new book out – always loved her work. She is such a great writer.
Having kosher chicken for dinner—-found that I love kosher chicken last year when I picked up some inadvertently in the market only to discover that whatever your religion, kosher chicken just rocks!! So dinner should be extra special.
You know, I am starting to feel fabulous again. Maybe it’s the expensive shampoo and conditioner I just bought last week after thinking my hair was looking dull, or maybe it is because I have friends and books that comfort me even when I am just whining and not really having anything concrete to complain about. Or maybe just writing this blog reminds me that being fabulous, like being happy, is most definitely a conscious choice – not a result of what happens
2017 is being re-booted. I think it has some great possibilities – real possibilities. If I can just keep the news to a minimum other than what I need to know to stay informed and involved, my friend heals her broken heart, and the spring brings bunnies/rain/sunshine/adventures, it’ll all work out. As well as a finished website for our new coaching product. Doing something I hadn’t done before—like taking a complete day off, worked for me. It took a swipe at my blahs. Doing different things can be overrated – but for this fabulous woman, it is really working for me. Going to remember when the next set of blahs start to happen, to look at what I have never done before and give it a try.
Happy March!! Yes, already!!